Rae

20130911_100604[3]Meet Rae, my granddog, if she must have a title.  She is a member of my daughter’s family, rescued as a puppy from an accidental litter of racing dogs.  Even though I don’t see her very often, I think Rae remembers me – or at least quickly accomodates to my presence. 

By nature her breed tolerates limited activity and being housebound quite well. Strange when you consider they are also built for such extreme activity as racing.  Rae stays home while her family goes to work each day. She sleeps and waits (and who knows what else, since no one is there…) When I’m around she likes to be near me and “dogs” me everywhere I go.  She even prefers to sleep with her humans and in the few days I’ve been here she is already habitually following me to bed each night. 

A greyhound is a different looking dog, being alarmingly skinny and bony.  You have to get used to them looking more like a deer or some other long legged creature with a pointy nose.  They are not very hairy and they get cold easily.  Rae likes soft, cushy places and doesn’t mind having a blanket or two. 

She had a childhood accident which left her with a twisted front leg.  We think it probably hurts her a little, but in spite of it she loves to play fetch and run for short periods of time. I like to take pictures of her.  She is prone to “red eye” and a glowing countenance which I think makes her look spooky, like the hound of the Baskervilles.

She is a sweet, gentle dog.  She remembers me and I like her a lot.

Cle Elum

Cle Elum

Don’t you love that mysterious sounding name? I could live there.  As it was, I was just visiting a friend for an overnight stay in this small Washington town which was about the same size and “feel” of the town where I grew up.  It’s over the pass and on the other side of the closest mountain range to Seattle and it’s geography gives it a whole different climate.  Over the pass, the sun came out and it got up to 90 degrees (again, not like Florida’s 90 degrees, but drier and with a cooling breeze).

The sights along I-90 going there were tree covered mountains, valleys, and all the expected natural stuff but in addition the marvel of the road itself.  The difficulty of maintaining clear passage in terrain like that was apparent in all the road construction and posted closings for blasting rock.  At least once I remembered thinking “I hope there is a really good geologist who inspected that rocky outcropping that I’m about to drive under”.  Think Reader’s Digest stories and You-tube videos of cars being buried under a slide…

Me, ready to ride out

Our planned outing was a bike ride on one of the local trails. What a great way to get familiar with the lay of the land! We chose the Coal Mine Trail.  It lay totally uphill for the three miles into Roslyn, the town we were heading for.  A gradual incline, to be sure, but how often do I ride bike? (or exercise, for that matter?) And did I mention it was 90 degrees?  When we pulled into the café at our destination and I got off the bike I felt really lightheaded and had to rest for a good bit with a blackberry soda and a sit down.  And of course the return trip would have required no pedaling at all if we had wished.  I was fully restored by the time we got back to Cle Elum.

20130912_184000[2] Does the name Roslyn bring anything to mind? It is the town where “Northern Exposure” was filmed and we visited the Roslyn Café and saw The Brick Pub.  It was a cute small town but evidently not much of a tourist draw in spite of the TV fame.  We went back later by car and drove around looking at the houses on the hillsides, many of them older, in bad condition, or abandoned entirely.  We drove on a few more miles to Ronald and ate dinner at a diner there.

Of the three little towns I experienced, Cle Elum was definitely my favorite.  Because of its proximity to I-90 there was more business, more choices of what to do and where to catch a meal.  Its history included a fire which destroyed many of the homes so most dwellings were newer, well maintained but still in character with the small town ambience.  Honestly, some of the streets were so wide and devoid of lines and stripes that they were like parking lots and made me feel strangely insecure.  The valley around Cle Elum is wide and flat and known for its hay production and exporting.  We visited a large fruit/vegetable market with a three story building housing antiques on the top two floors.  I could easily have spent the whole day looking at things there but as it was, my friend found my souvenir in half an hour so we didn’t stay.  I added a small cast iron turtle to my turtle collection and I was pleased since I didn’t have any iron turtles yet.

Other highlights of the trip: good conversation with my friend and her mom, seeing their charming, newly remodeled residence, relaxing with several episodes of Sherlock Holmes before retiring.  I’m just saying it was a good trip (including the exercise)and I’m glad I went.  And would go back again, for sure.

Pinch Me

I’m here in Seattle, and of course I’m sitting in a coffee shop looking out at Puget Sound. The ferry is crossing my view, people of all ages are running, biking, walking with their dogs on the street.  It’s supposed to be a record high temperature today, maybe in the 90’s, but it certainly is not like any 90 degree weather back in Florida.  This cool breeze off the water will make wearing long sleeves comfortable most of the day.  I’ve spent half an hour with my coffee while looking at bus schedules online.  I’m going to meet my daughter this afternoon in the downtown area and we’ll go to one of her appointments together.  I want to go early and pick up something at the famous Pike’s Place Market. 

I spent yesterday getting used to being here and resting from the trip.  I left the house only to take the granddog for a short walk.  Rae has been my little buddy since I got here, “dogging” me as I move from room to room.  She crept in and slept with me the first night and we’ve taken several naps together too, something we both seem to love to do.  Even though she does the alone thing pretty well, she seems glad to have my company. 

The mountains in the distance to the west look so inviting.  I have not been that far yet but hope to do it sometime soon.  Tomorrow I will be traveling an hour east for an adventure with a friend – maybe on a bike if my painful shoulder isn’t too affected by riding.  

Lots to think about here, and to look at, maybe to write about.  but for now my battery is getting low and I must close out this session.  Just sayin’ it – from Seattle.   

Is It Time?

That’s what I’m wondering – is it time to make a change? I’m talking about jobs, not necessarily professions, and there is a difference.  This is always one of my hardest decisions and I have to be more than a little bit unhappy to take the plunge.  In my career I’ve had jobs that I knew I needed to leave and could hardly wait to do so, jobs that I left because of other changing circumstances (like a move away from the area), jobs that just ended and I didn’t have to decide.  The one thing that’s always been missing is the “perfect job” that I never wanted to leave.  Do people have jobs like this?

I can vaguely remember writing a post similar to this at least once in the last two years of working. It’s always been provoked by the job I have now, so maybe this at least strike two for this place of employment.  I think the reason it’s so hard to leave is that I’ve devoted a lot of effort into becoming good at what I do in this position.  I love being good at something and in fact, that’s part of what makes a job fun for me. 

It becomes “not fun” when my physical well being is threatened, when I’m not trusted and when the assumption is made that I have wrong motives for actions I’ve taken.  Do you ever remember having a fight with your brother or sister when you were a kid? How the accusations became heated and a bit ridiculous because you really didn’t know how to disagree and discuss an issue? You were only a kid, right?  I don’t expect that kind of thing to happen as an adult in the workplace.

When it does, I really don’t like it.  When it happens regularly I begin to question whether I want to be subjected to it again and again.  Even in this economy, is it worth the money to have the mental and emotional stress? Work should be challenging me to think, grow, and problem solve but some environments make that very hard to happen.  Problems remain unresolved. I’m getting a headache thinking about it.

So, if it is time, the next question is how?  How to leave in a God honoring manner, with kindness, with clarity.  Do I want this door to be permanently closed?  Is there still something left to be accomplished relationally?  I am done in this place, but is God done with me in this place?

I have always felt that God gave me this job, as an answer to my request for provision for a specific financial need.  But even God’s assignments can be for a time, a season, and then be over. I’m just sayin’ I think this time is over.

Commitment

It seems like every time I turn around I am facing a committment of some kind.  Should I go or not go? Should I join or not join?  Should I spend or not spend? Should I quit or keep on? Is there something about autumn that makes all these decisions necessary?

Today I should respond to the detailed email I received over the weekend urging me to buy the airline ticket now if I want to go to Cambodia in December.  This would be my third trip to southeast Asia and to this point I have been saying yes to the venture.  I now have friends in Cambodia that I email, facebook with, and love dearly.  They are expecting me to come and see them again (because I told them I would…) So many new and exciting things have happened over there this year – the new campus in Phnom Penh for the orphan homes, the women’s dorm for university students, many of the children having learned English well enough that real conversations are possible.  I want to go!

And still the moment when I push the online “purchase” button for what seems like such a great deal of money, such a long flight… that is the moment of real committment. And I hesitate because I’m a little bit afraid.  Always.  And as silly as it seems, I always give God the message that if he doesn’t want me over there he will have to prevent my going, somehow.  He and I both know that he could do that and I welcome him having the final say. 

So, here I go on the committment of the day.  Praying that it goes well.

Who Can Write?

“We are all so much more complicated than we allow ourselves to appear.” “There is no life too dull to be transformed into art by a lively imagination.  Even Rumpelstiltskin began with straw.” Bess Steed Garner in the book “A Woman of Independent Means” Reading again one of my favorite books and finding myself in […]

Back to the Farm

I love field flowers. I’m thankful for the time I spent in Wisconsin this summer, which is where this picture was taken.  I’m thinking about that family reunion Wisconsin trip and there were several happenings that I never mentioned that were very good.

A very satisfying element of the reunion was that it centered around my grandfather’s farm which has undergone several major changes in the years since he passed away. My father and my youngest brother made a decision years ago to take advantage of the farm’s location, close to town, and built a very attractive nine hole executive golf course.  The farm house became the club house with some clever remodeling, and also had living quarters for my brother.  The barn became the workshop for the golf carts and lawnmowers.  All of us who visited got to golf in the evenings when the paying crowd cleared out.  Many of the cousins got to peddle soft drinks to the thirsty golfers, hunt for lost golf balls and other chores.  The farm had never looked so good, with it’s landscaped meadows and brooks and ponds.

My brother married and got tired of golfers looking in his living room window so he moved to another house.  The golf course hit a few bad years with weather, the economy, etc… and my brother built another business for his own income.  It was headquartered on the farm and largely internet based.  The second big change was made when the golf course was closed and the farm became Par Lane Condominiums.  My brother’s family remodeled the clubhouse again and moved back.  The energy efficient duplexes that he built and sold were very attractive and the abundance of green space left room for walking trails and picnic areas.  My parents bought one of the units and love living there.  It’s a safe and beautiful community where most of the owners know each other and socialize. Walmart moved in to the adjacent property and erected a nice, tall fence between them with a gate – it’s like having a shopping mall in the back yard whenever something is needed. 

Even with Walmart next door, the farm is still on the edge of town where the woods and the wild meet the streets and buildings of Hayward.  The old barn is still standing and functions to hold lawn maintenance tools and tractors.  As we gathered  in the evenings at the reunion we often remembered the places we had played, the spot where Grandma’s garden had been and where the chicken coop had stood.  The landscape is as beautiful as it ever was, even through all the changes.  One of the special occassions that my brother had planned for us was an afternoon photo shoot with a photographer.  She came and took photos  of all our families using the barn and the pond around it for backdrop.  In return for her services she had permission to use the setting for other photo shoots and I’m guessing it could become quite a popular place.

It was a good, good time.  And I’m thankful for family, for Wisconsin heritage, for all the memories that have been made in that spot. 

Begin Anywhere, Just Begin

This is a picture of the Gray Kitty that lives at my house.  Putting up her picture, or any other picture, is what I must do to begin posting on my page since I still have an “error on page” that keeps me from entering the cursor until I put in a picture.  Just as I had to figure out a way to begin my posts, through much frustration, I must also figure out a way to begin THE BOOK.  Every day at work I look at this month’s calendar page with it’s wisdom from Mary Engelbart “begin anywhere, just begin”. So I think it’s talking about the book that I’m supposed to be writing. 

Tonight on Facebook a friend back in my northern home town mentioned that she was working on her book.  She’s an ambitious sort but I didn’t know she was writing a book and telling people about it.  She sounded sort of confident and it made me think maybe she knew how to publish as well as write. ” No”, she said,  She didn’t care if it ever got published, she was just determined to write it. That might be the right attitude and I’m going to try it on for starters.  Forget publishing for now. 

Tomorrow I’m going to make a plan, with deadlines and defined tasks.  I’m going to attempt to do at least one thing every day, no matter how small.  One of the small things that I did today was to address the confines of my paying job.  I requested a change of status – from full-time to stand-by.  Nothing will happen quickly, since we have to find a replacement for me and nothing of that sort seems to happen quickly if at all.  But once I am working less it will become more important that I work on the book as a job, regularly, with other people keeping me accountable.  I think that’s what real writers do. 

I hope I don’t regret this post in the future when a reader asks me how the book is coming along… I’m just sayin’ it’s a little scary making public committments, but it’s a beginning, right?

Jacksonville



the storms gather…



and I get to watch for the 4 hours I’m traveling

I have had a few days off this week and decided to take the time up in Jacksonville with the daughter who doctors horses and other larger quadripeds. My history with veterinarians has always been on the client side, meaning that I see them come out, do their work and leave.  Now I have seen the practitioner side where they go from one job to another with multiple phone calls in between, maybe a meal, maybe not, and arrive home late with equipment to clean, supplies to restock, notes to record and file, and their own animals to tend.  This is not a job for the faint of heart.

Dressing a bad leg wound

Dr. Jules is just starting her practice and for that reason she takes any call that comes available to her.  Networking is important and every call provides an opportunity to meet people, make friends and pass out a business card.  Basically, what this means is that she will drive great distances for an appointment which nets her practically nothing monetarily.  Also since appointments come to her throughout the day, rather than all being in place in the morning when she starts, they can’t be grouped geographically.  One day, for instance, we started out in south Jacksonville, next took a call over an hour away in the north, and ended the day back in the St. Augustine area, followed by the trip home to, you guessed it, north Jacksonville.  All that drive time, lest you think it is peaceful and relaxing, is office time.  The computer sits on a stand at her right hand, her personal phone is somewhere between the seats and her work phone is on her lap except when she’s talking or texting. There is constant communication going on.

Her canine assistant sleeps on the floor behind her seat (nervously because articles in the shared space keep shifting and landing on top of her).

It rains almost every day lately and much work is done outside. Getting wet is common.

Most of the patients are large, frightened to the point of needing sedation, and non-English speaking.

I didn’t get a picture of it (aaaarghgh… should have!) but frequently saw Dr. Jules’ hand disappearing up to the elbow inside a horse’s mouth to check a tooth.  Dental work is done with a grinder the size of a machine gun. I “got” to hold the tongue aside (grab it in whole hand and pull to the side, yuck) and keep the horses’s head up in the air.  I also got to mess up an appointment on the computer, drop some papers in a large puddle, and get us lost driving to a farm – good job VetMa!  All in all, an interesting couple of days and I’m looking forward to a next time.