That’s what I’m wondering – is it time to make a change? I’m talking about jobs, not necessarily professions, and there is a difference. This is always one of my hardest decisions and I have to be more than a little bit unhappy to take the plunge. In my career I’ve had jobs that I knew I needed to leave and could hardly wait to do so, jobs that I left because of other changing circumstances (like a move away from the area), jobs that just ended and I didn’t have to decide. The one thing that’s always been missing is the “perfect job” that I never wanted to leave. Do people have jobs like this?
I can vaguely remember writing a post similar to this at least once in the last two years of working. It’s always been provoked by the job I have now, so maybe this at least strike two for this place of employment. I think the reason it’s so hard to leave is that I’ve devoted a lot of effort into becoming good at what I do in this position. I love being good at something and in fact, that’s part of what makes a job fun for me.
It becomes “not fun” when my physical well being is threatened, when I’m not trusted and when the assumption is made that I have wrong motives for actions I’ve taken. Do you ever remember having a fight with your brother or sister when you were a kid? How the accusations became heated and a bit ridiculous because you really didn’t know how to disagree and discuss an issue? You were only a kid, right? I don’t expect that kind of thing to happen as an adult in the workplace.
When it does, I really don’t like it. When it happens regularly I begin to question whether I want to be subjected to it again and again. Even in this economy, is it worth the money to have the mental and emotional stress? Work should be challenging me to think, grow, and problem solve but some environments make that very hard to happen. Problems remain unresolved. I’m getting a headache thinking about it.
So, if it is time, the next question is how? How to leave in a God honoring manner, with kindness, with clarity. Do I want this door to be permanently closed? Is there still something left to be accomplished relationally? I am done in this place, but is God done with me in this place?
I have always felt that God gave me this job, as an answer to my request for provision for a specific financial need. But even God’s assignments can be for a time, a season, and then be over. I’m just sayin’ I think this time is over.