Running Out Ahead

The husband keeps repenting of “running out ahead” of God. He is a problem solver and problems drive him crazy – it always seems to him that because he is aware of the problem, it is his to solve. He is not comfortable waiting for God. It’s usually in retrospect that he realizes his “running ahead”.

I am not saying that I condone inaction, waiting on everything because one is too lazy to address issues. That drives me crazy. When a problem is there to be solved, I am willing to pray about it and do whatever comes to mind in a reasonable fashion. Do something, do one thing and see what happens next…

Lately, almost daily, new problems are coming up on Dennis’s radar. He thinks about them obsessively. When there isn’t an actual problem, he thinks of a possible problem. He comes to me three or four times in the space of an hour, with more to say about the developing structure of the problem. It grows, takes shape in his mind and is often described as a dangerous situation, not just to him but to others as well. He must figure out what to do and intervene. He must convince others that action is required because he is not physically capable of doing what is needed by himself. What a dilemma. His world has a lot of anxiety in it.

The basement where his stuff is stored is likely going to flood because there are springs on the property.

The coming trip back home is dreaded because something in the truck is messing with his eyesight and making him sleepy. His wife will fall asleep and there will be an accident.

He hasn’t heard that the AC in his daughter’s house has been serviced in the two years she’s lived here. Danger, danger…

He might run out of vitamins, or pineapple on the trip home and his whole health regimen will go down the tubes.

There must be a reason he’s had the word “Fabian” given (by God) to him to investigate. Who is Fabian Farrington and how can he discover why he needs to know?

How can he keep from being further brain damaged while his wife is using the hotspot to access the internet?

How can he convince the code officials of the need to reverse their thinking about grounding rods in duplexes? People’s lives are at stake.

Who wouldn’t be anxious? It seems to me that the challenge is to be aware of possible problems AND aware that someone more capable than one’s self is working out the solution. Trust someone else. Trust God. Learn to wait without stressing out. Like the sign I saw yesterday in the barn I was in – ” Remember stressed, spelled backward, is dessert”. Yes it is, just sayin’…

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. Psalm 139:23

2 thoughts on “Running Out Ahead

  1. Proverbs 3: 5-6 My very favorite scripture. As of late I’ve really relied on that promise. This past month I’ve had 2 visits to ER and a 6 day stay in the hospital! In all my prayers the answer has been , ” This too shall pass” and that come what may “I will be okay” It’s been harder to deal with as far as pain goes, than all my surgeries. I received and injection into my SI joint yesterday. So far no big improvement but it can take up to a week for the effect of it to kick in. I’m so blessed as I have an amazing support group,family and friends, and mostly because I KNOW the Lord understands my pain and frustrations….He suffered all that He might understand and be able to succor us in our darkest hours….I pray for you and Dennis as well…that you may be secure in His sacrifice for you and all of us…Love you Shirley,
    Lorie

    • Sorry you’re having to deal with all that pain Lorie. That scripture is literally a password one for me for some of my internet sites (cause you have to trust the Lord there, for sure). We can handle more than we know when we’re not alone in it. Hugs (gentle, virtual ones) and prayers.

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