If you’ve been asking God to direct you in changing some of your life circumstances, and then change is suddenly presented to you, you’d best not say “no”. I’m just being practical here.
I’m on an early morning drive with three hours to think. It’s a holiday weekend with a wedding to attend. I’m by myself, which was not the plan.
Change started a couple weeks ago when the husband did some work which hurt his back. It’s gotten worse to the point where he is staying home, using a walker, and asking me for help putting on socks and shoes and other bending over activities. He moves at snail pace, not a young vigorous snail either. Although he had planned to travel to this wedding, this morning it was deemed impossible to get in and out of the car without further harm. He stayed home. I wonder if this is the beginning of change for us and I want to say”no!”
Yesterday my daughter called and said that she had a client who was interested in taking my horse. I’ve considered selling him because I have so little opportunity to ride or care for him and I know he is a financial liability for my daughter. It needed to be decided quickly, so I said yes. The only horse I have ever owned has now left the herd. But I know that this makes a much easier situation for my daughter, especially should she ever decide to move.
I have no idea how these two things would work together to answer my recent prayers that we be brought together as a family. Perhaps they won’t. But I am certain that God can be trusted to hear and work out what is best for all of us. With a mixture of excitement, and concern as to what part I am to play, I am waiting for the next thing. I’m saying yes, even before I understand. Maybe that’s what trust is…, just sayin’.